Reflection
My Etsy shop has been closed for 10 days and all
the orders have been shipped. I have also been able to catch up with other household
businesses. Today is the first day that the ‘to do list’ is totally
empty. Even the house is sparkling clean, for the first time in many months.
Now without
the 'to do list' to guide (or force) me what to do I sit on the sofa and
think about what I can do next, especially regarding my work. The list of things
to do begins again, this time in my head and not on paper. I can continue to
sew more skirts and dresses of the old designs to keep in stock for when the
shop is open again, as I know that they will always sell. There are still a lot of fabrics left on the shelves.
Or should I begin to order supplies to
make my new designs. I will need quite a lot of money because this time it is
not only clothes but also fashion accessories.
The urge or
you may call it ‘impulse’ to begin the new projects is very strong right
now. But should I already invest a lot of money on the new products even when I
don’t know if they will sell? There have been times in the past when I
introduced new products and they did not sell very well and I ended up having
too many of the items at home. The money has not been earned back.
Should I
still insist on working for myself while I would earn a lot more working for
someone else?
What have I
learned from these past experiences?
How should
I plan it better this time?
But I am not
really a planner!
My heart is
always stronger than my head.
If my head
is weak what does my strong heart say now?
My heart
says have faith in what you believe in. Live your dreams and your passions. Try
building from what you have. When something did not work out the way you
wanted, do not call it failure. Call it an experiment that did not work. Then
you keep experimenting working around the ideas that you have. Keep the faith!
Live your passions!!
Faith
OK, I know
that at the end of the day I still do not have an answer to my question what to
do next. But what I know is that I will not give up. I will always have faith in
my work, my passions, in the same way I have faith in the plants I bought for
my living room in early December 2011. I bought two red Christmas poinsettia
plants, which were then about 10 inches tall. We enjoyed their
beauty as they brought lovely festive atmosphere throughout the festive weeks.
By mid-January the next year all the Christmas decorations were tidied up and
the colors of the poinsettia plants began to change slowly from red to
green. The new leaves were green too.
I kept
watering the plants because I believe in their beauty, regardless of their new
colors. Besides, the green color was lovely throughout spring and summer 2012. I
really don’t have a lot of knowledge on the plant and was kind of hoping that
the color of the leaves would change to red again by Christmas. But Christmas came and went and the color remained
green. I was a little disappointed. But I
said I would give them another year and hope that the color would turn red again by Christmas 2013.
And we keep watering them. Some friends recognized the plants and jokingly said
‘Oh you still have these plants!’. Never
mind!
And to my
delight I one day noticed the fading of the color of some of the leaves. Some
were not very dark green any more. I said, as I gave them water, please turn red,
please turn red.
And these are the pictures of the plants today in March 2013.
This is one
of my most wonderful experiences on keeping the faith and following the heart. I
feel so inspired.